It has been a while since I last wrote. Things in life have kept me in a place where it is taking all of God's grace and lots of my own effort to keep my mind on God's Word and my eyes on Jesus, the Author and Finisher of my faith.
Despite the trying times or moments of confusion or doubt that circle around my brain, I have the Holy Spirit holding me together in my inward parts, and that is amazing to know and live in its truth. Although I still often become fearful initially, it is wonderful to see that as I look to my heavenly Father, those fears are dispelled and His peace takes residence within me. I know in my intellect that "nothing" has changed and yet somehow "everything" has.
Just as when Jesus walked physically on this earth and touched people's lives through healing them or casting out a demon, we too can experience His touch that makes life different in the moment and often for our lifetime. Repeatedly through my walk with Christ, there have been times when His just being there has made profound changes and adjustments to my life view and feelings. There is NO explanation except the presence of God entering an open heart full of need.
It is lovely to see the changes He brings about as we surrender to Him and allow Him to work and re-work our thought patterns and make us new, transforming us through His Word and in moments of grace where He just does something in us; how out of nowhere a Word comes to us that we don't really know but it's alive in our spirits floating around and at just the correct moment He brings it to us like a sip of cold water on a scorchingly hot summer afternoon. Refreshment. Clearheadedness. New vision.
This is the life of walking with the One, the true and living God. Just as in our relationships with closest family or friends, there are those times. We all have had them. We feel so close and united and hopeful, bonded in a very precious way and filled with love. The tears fall freely.
This was the day I had yesterday with my God.
Nothing in my fleshly world has changed. Life is still up in the air with many unanswered questions and some seemingly unanswered prayers. However Hope came and filled my empty soul, And Hope is like a "floatie." It makes the waters seem far less dangerous and the journey more relaxing.
So here I am in my "floatie" walking alongside my Savior...and we all know He walks on water.
That was refreshing and the ultimate truth, like that sip of that cool water on a hot hot day, that you spoke of. I loved to read as you said how many times you look to Him no matter what it is that is going on in your head, and that he always calms you. Blessings :) You do have very much going on in your life that would easily take over your mind completely, yet, you're not giving in to that, you're seeking God's help and you know He will answer your prayers when He is ready. I also love how you said He goes into your open heart that waits for Him to fill you with His awesome Spirit. I am Blessed to have read another of your life sharing's and I know you will stay on your "floatie" walking beside Him, yes, He does walk on water! AMEN and AMEN!!!!
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