Sunday, June 10, 2012
Audrey Assad - Breaking You (Live)
This song speaks boldly to my wounded soul and my ever being renewed and restored spirit,as well as my body that carries the debris and remains of poor decision making that result from being physically, sexually, and emotionally abused the greater portions of my life until the age of 17.
It was then that "Help was on His way", and I met Christ. I went into my relationship with Him knowing I needed forgiveness.The overwhelming shame I carried and buried told me that loud and clear. It would take decades for me to understand that I indeed needed His forgiveness and salvation to enter His Kingdom, and thrive in the New Life He offered me,while at the same time I learned that this sense of "shame" was a cloak handed down to me by those who had sinned against me. In my Savior's eyes these were not one and the same. Together as we have walked these 40 years,He has shown me the difference.
Oswald Chambers wrote in My Utmost for His Highest that people often think we go through things in life to "learn" something. He also said God often takes us through things to "unlearn" something. My journey has been filled with both certainly.I thank God for His amazing grace and faithfulness to me that has continually drawn me to Him and to His undoing of that which was done to me, while at the same time reclaiming me;Spirit,Soul and Body .The undoing comes as I present myself to Him just as I am. This is not always or often a pretty presentation. That is okay with Him. He loved me in my sin before I ever knew Him. He died for me while I was in my sin and not even caring that He existed. He called me to Himself with a purpose and a plan.
It is in discovering the difference of "learning" and "unlearning" that I become more free every day. It is not a race.It is a journey, a walk in grace with the One who not only created me but saved me and has a purpose in all He has allowed to sift through His Hands and into my experience called Life.
"But on the contrary,as the Scripture says,What eye has not seen and ear has not heard and has not entered into the heart of man; all that God has prepared,made and keeps ready for those who love Him and who hold Him in affectionate reverence,promptly obeying Him and gratefully recognizing the benefits He has bestowed." 2 Corinthians 2: 9
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Beautiful. I'm so glad that you are doing this.
ReplyDeleteHow true that our bodies carry that emotional debris. I wish the world understood that better...it would give us more compassion and empathy I think.
Thank you Mandy.I agree with your statement.The world may never be able to see with those eyes but hopefully we can as we become more like Jesus and are made aware of the way sin in all its ways affect us.
ReplyDeleteYour words are highly understandable. Your mission to share your life and your life changes is a royal Blessing for me. I don't know of anyone else that can share their hearts more clearly than you. It takes a lot of emotional well being and understanding to realize where and why you failed , in the past and learning where to go from any certain point in life. I pray that we all can see what we might be blinded by, and that we all help others more often to Christ. That is what I want so badly. I may not be that good with words but my heart knows what I want to say. You've got the Gift of knowledge and for saying the right things at the right time. You've helped me over and over again with where I'm going and where I want to be. Thank you so much, I will check your Blog to see what is new. God Bless you! I love you very much
ReplyDeleteMargie,you are such a blessing to anyone I'm sure that knows you.You have a deep faith and love for God that is obvious and you encourage others to look for Him at every opportunity.I feel so blessed that God brought us together through Susan <3 Thank you for your place in my life and the growing friendship we are experiencing.I love you too and look forward to our times together here at My Hiding Place and on FB as well.Haven't forgotten your CD's either.Soon my friend,soon :)
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